Friday, 9 December 2011

why do we suffer in love?

Why do we suffer in love?
i read in a book once , that suffering occurs when we want other people to love us in a way we imagine we want to be loved and not in a way love manifest itself - free and intammed, guiding us with its force and driving us on.

In the words of persion saga : Love is a disease no one wants to get rid off. Those who catches it will never try to get better , and those who suffer do not wish to cured.

Monday, 5 December 2011

This is not me

hi
i don't know where to start from but i i have to , from somewhere at least..
i have tried writing writing so many timed but its not coming out so today i am finally writing without thinking..
kabhi kabhi you really don't feel like sharing things with your friends but want them to understand it without flowing  the feelings out of your mouth... thankfully god really blessed me with such beautiful friends but i just feel like bothering them
there is some emptiness from inside, as if some task is left incomplete , as if something or someone is waiting for just me to complete it..
i surrendered myself to nature but again i am getting entangled in this web of life... this jungle which has no ends but is full of traps...
Jo bhi mein hun..
mujhe nahi pata..
 kya hun..
yeah bhi nahi apata..
aazad parinda hun
ya zameen ka ek zariya?
kuch mujhe pukare..
par samaj na pau mein
kiss shor mein ghiri hun mein
nikal na pau abb yahan se
woh hai par door nahi
aakhe hai par roshni nahi
roshni hai tu
mere andar hai tu
shor me shanti hai tu
meri wajha hai tu

kabhi lagta hai sab kuch hai
kabhi kuch bhi nahi
yeh ek paheli hai
jisme apna is mazaa hai
jine ka mazaa
marne ka mazaa
sufiana hai tu
jine ki aadat hai hu

i tried dancing many times and take out all i have. relieved myself from everything but something is still taking some away from me...
This is not me...this living me never fails, intuitions .... follow them, my protection is far more strong than  even i can realise and this love is strongest for one who doesn't realise .. my love is my power , my attitude  ITS ME  and I CAN NEVER FAIL.. let ANYTHING COME INFRONT OF ME NOW...IF IT HAS THIS MUCH OF POWER THEN FACE ME..