why do we suffer in love?

Why do we suffer in love?
i read in a book once , that suffering occurs when we want other people to love us in a way we imagine we want to be loved and not in a way love manifest itself - free and intammed, guiding us with its force and driving us on.

In the words of persion saga : Love is a disease no one wants to get rid off. Those who catches it will never try to get better , and those who suffer do not wish to cured.

This is not me

hi
i don't know where to start from but i i have to , from somewhere at least..
i have tried writing writing so many timed but its not coming out so today i am finally writing without thinking..
kabhi kabhi you really don't feel like sharing things with your friends but want them to understand it without flowing  the feelings out of your mouth... thankfully god really blessed me with such beautiful friends but i just feel like bothering them
there is some emptiness from inside, as if some task is left incomplete , as if something or someone is waiting for just me to complete it..
i surrendered myself to nature but again i am getting entangled in this web of life... this jungle which has no ends but is full of traps...
Jo bhi mein hun..
mujhe nahi pata..
 kya hun..
yeah bhi nahi apata..
aazad parinda hun
ya zameen ka ek zariya?
kuch mujhe pukare..
par samaj na pau mein
kiss shor mein ghiri hun mein
nikal na pau abb yahan se
woh hai par door nahi
aakhe hai par roshni nahi
roshni hai tu
mere andar hai tu
shor me shanti hai tu
meri wajha hai tu

kabhi lagta hai sab kuch hai
kabhi kuch bhi nahi
yeh ek paheli hai
jisme apna is mazaa hai
jine ka mazaa
marne ka mazaa
sufiana hai tu
jine ki aadat hai hu

i tried dancing many times and take out all i have. relieved myself from everything but something is still taking some away from me...
This is not me...this living me never fails, intuitions .... follow them, my protection is far more strong than  even i can realise and this love is strongest for one who doesn't realise .. my love is my power , my attitude  ITS ME  and I CAN NEVER FAIL.. let ANYTHING COME INFRONT OF ME NOW...IF IT HAS THIS MUCH OF POWER THEN FACE ME..

When we were kids, we believed in magic soo much.... We grew up and started facing the reality and come to know that magic is only in thoughts... but i still believe in magic...

Gradually our parents stared saying " grow up and stop living in your imaginary world.. You are still such a kid.. Come on and think about reality.. reality is too harsh and life is a struggle " and slowly  and slowly we start believing them.....

That smile  that used to come while watching any magic show started vanishing and that bond which used to connect us from our soul starts fading..

We then start living and believing in this stupid reality..

Now that hope that one day a fairy will come in our dreams at night and grants us 3 wishes is no more , that ride on unicorn wearing a beautiful white gown with a flowery head band is no more...

All left is the sorrow of this real life and worries of tomorrows...

And finally our parents  call us "GROWN UPS" or so called "MATURE ADULTS"....

MAGIC IS NOT AN ESCAPE FROM REALITY , IN FACT ITS THE LINK THAT CONNECT US FROM SO CALLED "REALITY" AND A HOPE THAT TOMORROW WILL BE GOOD AND FULL OF MAGICAL ADVENTURE

Change = Alive

Have you ever thought that what makes you feel wearied when your day ends? What makes you still incomplete as if there is a hole inside you which has to be filled?
We are human beings .. born as nomads but have become stationary and this is what actually kills us..
Nomads never have routine.. their day changed with every second..
Its the "change" that keeps them alive.
We have all tied our self to something r the other and never let us go free..We need to change inn order to keep us alive.. like u will get bored if i use one line again n again..
Also we need to connect our self with our self..
Okay lets take an example.. A woman or lets say a wife has gone for an holiday to her favorite destination  suppose in  mountains. now she's standing on the d mountain where its all green n wind is blowing.. Instead of enjoying that air the wife is continuously thinking about , what must be happening at home.., or Its 2pm.. my child would have ate their lunch or not.. and things like that..
Here this woman is all lost in her routine and and forget herself..
She needs to think about who she is and why she's here... must enjoy the present moment.. otherwise it would just leave her frustrated and irritated as a result should just cancel her trip and return home the very next day!!
"Time neither moves nor it is stationary " and "Our life is a journey like a train and not a station"

NO ONE AND JUST NO ONE CAN EVER REMAIN SAME THROUGH OUT THEIR LIFE..
 Its the change that keeps them alive ... being constant or same will only make you wearied n tired and bored form yourself.. Even your love need to be constantly moving so as to remain fresh !!
Never expect your love to remain same ..even if you try to do so it will only turn your lives into hell.
I read it somewhere " They lie in what you call the "past" ans await decision to be made in what in what you call the "future".They only clog your mind and slow you down , and won let you understand the present. If u rely on your experience, you'll simply keep applying the old solutions to new problems. "

Its takes a huge effort to free yourself from memory, but when you succeed, you start to realise that you're capable of far more than you imagined.

I dont know why m writing this .. i have no particular reason for it too.. but just felt like doing so!

It just came to my mind "LIFE is just to short to explain anything to anyone ". Is that really so?

i mean if we really dont want to explain anything to anyone then why do we do it? is that just because we want to justify ourself or do we want to prove ourself? how does it make a difference?

People are just mad..They dont know what they are doing and why they are doing it.. Why do they have to comment on everyone and intrude in everyone's life? Cant we just mind their own business ?

People just have to do it and without any reason.. like : omg look at d clothes she's wearing, ooo see d way he/she walks, see he/she travels in that car or have tht mobile ..jst trying to show herself/himself..!!

Now tell me.. how does it matter to the world tht what a person is wearing or carrying with them? Its just stupid waste of time , thinking and commenting on somthing which have no relevence in their respective lives..What a shame!!

Is it really imp to define our existance and give a name to it? I know you must be thinking that i m mad , and i agree.. i really am.. thats why i am writing this! 

But you know what the real fact it..

Your likes and dislikes can never content you and neither it will ever do ! 

You are a life in your own and its what you make it and not d people or your likes/ dislikes!!

Thank you for reading this .. lol :P

Life is a mystery

Life is this

Life is that

Life is nothing

Its just "US"

I was beginning to sense that to stare into the heart of such a fearful ,mystery wasn't a bad thing . To be afraid is a priceless education.

Once you have been that scared,you know more about your frailty than most people do , and i think that changes the man .

DREAM

To dream high is no crazy, to not dream is not a sin but to compromise on your own thoughts is the highest harm one could do to self .

" HOPE that is the only ANTIDOTE to fear "

" Something told me that fear should never fully rule the heart "

Alone

I want to b set alone today,
I want to feel my presence today,
My mind is getting clogged
With no way of getting out.

somebody help me,
no i don't want,
just leave me alone ,
thats all i want,

Life seems to b so ruined,
Life seems to b so meaningless,
With no goal in my mind
I m wandering around

U have come into my life,
Trying to pick me up,
But i don't want this to happen
As i want to face all by myself!

My happiness seems to u an eternity,
My death brings you tears,
I don't know what to do
But now being alone is what i fear

please leave me alone
i don't deserve this ( ur love)
for what i have done
i should b punished

I have brought tears in my mothers eyes
And smtimes brought relife to her aching soul
Her happiness  is all i want,
Bt i want to b left alone

Your pain should be taken away
And love should should be described in a way
Tht u youself never realise
When i pass away..

You call me a princess,
Which I dont want to be anymore,
I have no reasons for it,
Bt its aching me more..

My name means Noble
Or a form of shea,
Which does not relate to me,
Nor do I...

Mistakes And Perfection

Nobody in this world is perfect.Everyone makes mistakes and these mistakes only make us eligible ( I wont use d word perfect because No One can b perfect) to face our next challange which life have planned for us.
Then why does it boggles our mind so much.
Our Mind..which is always swinging between past n future n  forgets to even give a thought about Present!!!
It always needs a support and lil councelling to make it stand still n think only about present. How can our future b better without making our present best ?? And how can we make our present best if we dont learn from our past???  This is what we can Experience.
Everyone faces and goes through a difficult phase in their respective lives. Our main challange which lies there is not how we take it, but its actually how we deal with or tackle it!! It all depends on us tht we have to make it a bubble of trouble or play with it, enjoying as if its a kids game... :) :) 

There is nothing i own possess completely in my life except my SOUL n LOVE. Don't know whether i should believe on this "LOVE" or not. Hmmmm. All i can do i selflessly give this to everyone without expecting anything.

To deeply dive inside it and discover its true power...Just  let myself set loose and flow in the direction, to d path which is less travelled !!

      TWO ROADS DIVERGED IN A WOOD, AND 
      I TOOK THE ONE LESS TRAVELLED BY,
      AND THAT HAD MADE ALL D DIFFERENCE
                                                                                 - By Robert Frost
Playing with d light with d closed eyes, letting it pass through as if u r a transparent sheet , without blocking even a single ray.
This is so serene...Cant stop myself from loving u. The more i stop myself , d more i dive deep into your love. D fear of losing u is always bugging me but still i feel so satisfied n docile. The sweetness is penetrating deep inside me, turning d black coffee into cafe mocha :p
The word 'lonely' 'emptiness' is no more hitting or fighting with me.. As if they have got defeated on the very day I said u yes!